setback day probably?...
And the day begun with fights..Late at work, fighting in the car with mum...I mean well I know but everything becomes f*cked up...I have so much tension inside that it comes across the wrong way..I just cannot deal with everything right now.It is simple as that but still I m trying for more, to improve things and to bring harmony.It just doesn t work and I cannot seem to understand why..I will apologise now but it won t fix things I know. Ouf! I just need a break, a fairy that will fix everything just like that with her magic stick..is it too much to ask for?
Came back home last night after work with the motivation to work, well guess again..I got caught into chats and disagreements with dad about the same old things, result? None.
Managed to have a nice outcome and mainly a calm one but then again the pressure is all inside.I have to find the right way to deal with things..but how?
K is in Brazil, having the time of his life..Surfing, sunbathing, swimming and chilling. I would certainly need something like that right now..He managed to make me travel with him, bless him.
Daf in Korea but still so close..Bless technology for that. She managed to have her usual positive effect in my mood, logic and love sort out everything I see and learn every day.
KSV in London. We are living in the same timezone but different geography. Not bad not to feel alone and laugh at your bad luck. Cheers matey!
At least I had a nice chat on the phone with G and he was just sweet, bless him. He was listening patiently and stood by me in everything I was saying. "I love u, I know how u are in your good and bad days, so don t worry". But what am I doing there though? Trying to find a replacement, something temp to get me by things? Don t know..I know that I have to do something though..and do it now! Gosh I miss R, he would help me in all of that I m sure..Thank God I have the girls around me though now, here. They count for something, coz they help me let out things.But as always, I seem to f*ck everything up in no time...
Let's see how the rest of the day will proceed...Fingers crossed mates...
Came back home last night after work with the motivation to work, well guess again..I got caught into chats and disagreements with dad about the same old things, result? None.
Managed to have a nice outcome and mainly a calm one but then again the pressure is all inside.I have to find the right way to deal with things..but how?
K is in Brazil, having the time of his life..Surfing, sunbathing, swimming and chilling. I would certainly need something like that right now..He managed to make me travel with him, bless him.
Daf in Korea but still so close..Bless technology for that. She managed to have her usual positive effect in my mood, logic and love sort out everything I see and learn every day.
KSV in London. We are living in the same timezone but different geography. Not bad not to feel alone and laugh at your bad luck. Cheers matey!
At least I had a nice chat on the phone with G and he was just sweet, bless him. He was listening patiently and stood by me in everything I was saying. "I love u, I know how u are in your good and bad days, so don t worry". But what am I doing there though? Trying to find a replacement, something temp to get me by things? Don t know..I know that I have to do something though..and do it now! Gosh I miss R, he would help me in all of that I m sure..Thank God I have the girls around me though now, here. They count for something, coz they help me let out things.But as always, I seem to f*ck everything up in no time...
Let's see how the rest of the day will proceed...Fingers crossed mates...
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